Burning
Snowstorm
By Lizzie Meddler
(Based on the song “What If” by Emilie
Autumn)
Author's Note:
This story was inspired by two things: Emilie Autumn's song
"What If" - about a girl whom people are trying to force her to be
someone she isn't, when she's all these things that are impossible or contrary,
and she's challenging them, asking them what they'd do if she was, say, a
snowstorm burning. Something that doesn't fit the traditional view of what is
perfect. It was also inspired by a specific character in my serialized story
series "The Freelance Chronicles." A girl born of an immortal and a
mortal, who is raised in the mortal world, and then is taken to the immortal
kingdom, where she's expected to forget her mortal heart and become like all of
the other immortals. But she can't, no matter how hard she tries to fit their
vision. It's a concept that, I think, a lot of us can relate to, and I know I
really, really do. I don't fit into anyone's picture frame and the lyric -
"A snowstorm burning" - really stuck out in my mind, because it's how
I so often feel. So enjoy this short story, dedicated to all of us impossible
girls - us burning snowstorms - who simply won't ever fit into someone's
"perfect vision."
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How is it
fairy tales begin? Oh yes. . . .
Once upon a
time, there was a girl whose imaginings became reality. They leapt from her
mind and into existence before her very eyes. This was nothing strange to the
girl or to those who saw it, for she lived in an enchanted world, where the
impossible was quite possible indeed.
However, the
girl’s particular sort of imaginings were not liked in the enchanted kingdom.
For the girl much enjoyed imagining the contradictory. Sirens who sang lost
sailors to sleep, so that they might forget their woes just for a time. Demons
with warm, kind hearts, who offered weeping maidens flowers rather than tempted
them into destruction.
These things
the girl loved imagining most, for they reflected her own heart. For the girl
was not like the others in the enchanted kingdom. She came from somewhere quite
different, somewhere less magical. But long ago, those from the enchanted
kingdom came and took her from her loving, warm family and told her that she
was one of them. And yet, she was a girl with a contrary heart - immortal,
raised by mortals.
Horrified by
her contrary creations, those charged with the girl’s education sought to
change her. They told her that her imaginings were quite impossible, even in a
land where the impossible was possible. They told her that they knew her best,
even though they could not see into her heart. They did all that they could
think of to turn the girl into someone she was not. Finally, they forbade her
from imagining anything else impossible.
The girl
tried to please them. She wanted to belong. But she could not understand why
her mortal heart in an immortal body was so wrong. She felt as if she were
being torn in two, the more she tried to comply to what her keepers demanded.
And when she was forbidden from imagining shallow oceans and deep rain puddles,
she thought she might break entirely.
It was under
a weeping willow that the boy found her. The girl knew instantly that, like
her, he was something impossible. He was dressed in fine clothing, but bore an
expression no one who has everything in the world ought to have.
But the
boy’s sorrowful eyes brightened with curiosity when he saw the girl under the
weeping willow, curled in on herself, quite despondent. She held before her
eyes a small corked bottle, which held something glittering with bright white
fire.
“What is
that?” the boy asked, captivated.
The girl
startled and tucked the bottle away. Quietly, he sat down across from her and
silence stretched before them - uneasy at first, then slowly, strangely,
comfortable. The girl removed the bottle again and handed it to the boy.
“It’s me,”
she said.
It held a
snowstorm, its glittering crystalline flakes burning with white cold fire. It
was impossible. And beautiful. Impossibly beautiful.
“Why have
you bottled yourself up?” he asked, returning it to the girl’s small hands. She
hugged it close to her chest.
“Because,”
she whispered, “I mustn’t be something that cannot exist. I don’t understand
why the impossible cannot be possible,” she continued. “Why can there not be
angels without wings, or shepherds who keep something other than sheep? Why can
there not be a mortal heart in an immortal body?”
The boy’s
gaze turned hauntingly sorrowful again. But rather than voice any sympathy, he
said instead, “What would happen if you let your burning snowstorm out?”
“They would
not listen,” she replied, sad.
“They
couldn’t deny the reality of your possible impossibilities forever,” he
replied. He tilted his head back to look up at the weeping willow. “And does it
matter if they don’t agree with who you are? So long as you are content with
yourself.”
The girl
dared not believe his words. But he echoed what she knew, deep in her contrary
heart, that he was right. Did she dare? Did she dare take flight and let her
snowstorm burn bright and without restraint?
Smiling, she
uncorked the bottle. The snowstorm, released from its prison, swirled out of
the bottle and disappeared high into the sky. Joining the thick clouds above,
it rained down burning snowflakes, pricking their skin with cold heat.
The girl
laughed. What impossible thing would she make reality next? She jumped to her
feet and ran to the weeping willow’s trunk.
“Why must
willows weep out of sorrow?” she wondered. “Why can they not be weeping from
laughter?” And the willow’s drooping branches shivered and began to wave in the
breeze, throwing shining droplets of water through the burning snowstorm, rainbows
dancing from its sparkling surface.
The boy
smiled and the sorrow lifted from his dark eyes. The girl made the impossible
possible, and he saw the impossible. What he saw now was a gilded picture frame
trapping the girl, and now its frame shattered. And the girl was growing wings,
brilliant golden ones, to fly far away from those who would trap her into
someone that she wasn’t.
A snowstorm
burning. Something entirely impossible. A mortal heart in an immortal body. She
could not be contained. And though her tutors covered their ears and would not
see what she was, the girl soared ever higher above them. And her heart was
lightened for it.
THE END
Copyright 2016 by Lizzie Meddler
Ah, yes, an excellent tale. I am of a logical mindset, therefore impossibilities being portrayed as possibilities always send me into a state of confusion, attempting to figure it out, which causes paradoxes and the such, so I am probably not the ideal reader of such a story. However, I still enjoyed reading it, so all's well!
ReplyDeleteHaha - it's okay. ^_^ The ironic thing is: I'm quite of the logical mindset myself and it's quite the challenge for me, as a writer, to tell my logical brain to just stop for a moment and accept the impossible as being possible. ;) My writing brain and my logical brain usually work hand-in-hand when I have to pick out plot holes, but not so much when a story requires the suspension of reality.
DeleteI dread the day when I might have to do this…
DeleteAs a living contradiction (if not in the beautifully fantastic way portrayed here), I feel very much for this story. I like how the girl didn't deny what she really was at the end too. This had the feel of an original fairy tale, which I love :) I'm glad the girl also found someone who could love her for who she is :)
ReplyDeleteThought you might enjoy it. ^_^ Sadly, the girl's tale doesn't end so happily in "The Freelance Chronicles". But you'll have to read it to find out!! ;P
DeleteThis is a extraordinarily interesting story.
ReplyDeleteThanks! ^_^ It's actually one that I might someday refine a bit more and actually attempt to publish. This is just a seedling of something that could be bigger. But those are my favorite short stories.
DeleteIt reminds me of Hans Christian Anderson :) I like the impossible things that she imagines; she's outstandingly pure-hearted.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I haven't forgotten your Freelance Chronicles, and do want to go on reading them someday :)
Thank you! Hans Christian Anderson was my fairy tale/short story writer hero as a kid, and he still is. I adored the tragic beauty and magical realism of his tales.
DeleteYou'll have lots to read! ^_^
This has a really nice, classical fantasy feel that I enjoyed.
ReplyDeleteLoved it! :D
I got bunches of plot bunnies from the song... XD